meditation – days 1 and 2

I’ve been told to meditate for years by seemingly everyone I speak to.  I’ve always known it would be a good idea to at least try it out, but frankly it seemed like a lot of effort.  In unpacking that now, after three days of changing my routines around and meditating, I think what I actually meant by that, is that I felt like there’s not the time in the day, and my mind races too much.  Trying to tame that beast is too much effort and I don’t feel like I have the energy for that.

I have assessed where my time goes each day (loosely, but it was obvious), and now know that actually I have more time than I could possibly require to fit in some meditation.

I downloaded the Calm app, purely because I’ve read some blog posts recently about people loving it, and more to the point it was the first free app that popped up in my search (most of the app requires in-app purchase though).

There’s a couple of free options to choose from, and I selected the 7 Days of Meditation, to teach me what I’m supposed to do, even though I figured I probably understood the concept.  Each meditation is only for 8-10 minutes and although I find the voice guiding me highly distracting and annoying because she rarely shuts up, she obviously has to speak to to guide me 😀

I seat myself down on my big lovely hippy floor cushion, cross my legs, and listen to the app – trying to block out the incredibly distracting noise of the busy T-intersection I live at.  Particularly today, the first day back to work after Easter, I meditated in peak hour.

Day 1
The time flew.  I was really ready to meditate and had set my morning up so that I would be in the best inner space to commence this practice.  Parts of my body ached from sitting in that position – I have spondylolysthesis so sitting like that properly is kinda painful.  I followed the instructions and really had no issues with distracting thoughts.  On the two occasions a thought popped into my head I said “thank you” and pictured my hand gently brushing the thought away, which is something I’d heard around the traps over the years.  It worked.

Afterwards I was pretty sure I hadn’t meditated long enough for it to have any impact on my day, but as I reflected back that evening, I think the practice potentially honed my focus for the day.  I also noticed that I got up and down a lot less from the laptop when I was studying – more focused.  I managed to do one task at a time without constant mind chatter about how I need to be doing so many other things and as a result I was calmer throughout the day.

Day 2
Again, had various body aches and pains.  I breathed into them and they either went away or I forgot about them for the most part.  I had more issues with drifting off into thought, but I just brought myself back to the meditation and didn’t give myself a hard time over it.  Again, it felt really short but I was buoyed by the effects from the day before and I wasn’t disappointed.  I was very productive throughout the day in terms of housework.  I was unable to sit properly at the computer and do my work because I had laptop troubles but I did initially sit down without my usual internal whinging about it.  Again, I was focused and moved from one task to another without much worrying about all else I had to do and whether time was running out.  I worried very little throughout the day and was definitely much calmer than I usually am.

I get it now, I get meditation.  After only two days I see what all the fuss is about.  I’ve really set my days up to benefit as fully as I can from the practice of meditation though, and will outline in another post how I’ve changed my routines to do that.  I can’t credit meditation alone with improving my state of mind and productivity.

I’ve just completed day three of meditation and am raring to go and meet the day head-on.

What have you put off doing for years that you wish you hadn’t?